My rants and rats

Why does a grown man suck on his tumb while working on his computer?

This guy at work who works infront of me sucks in his tumb while he works. It’s so weird. It freaks me out!

This guy is also one of the biggest nerds (not that there is nothing wrong with it, I am a nerd, so is my husband).

And he is a ninja. Like a real ninja. He’s been training for 12 years and just went to Japan to take his Saki test (I don’t know how to write that), that’s like the ultimate ninja test.

It just freaks me out. Like he is going to bring his katana to work one day and kill us all.

• Bullets because I want to.
• Today I feel exhausted, my body hurts all over.
• I think I’m getting “the plague”. This is what we call the flu here at the office.
• Speaking of office, I’m sick and tired of a coworker trying to be flirty with another coworker who is MARRIED. She knows this, he is very shy and probably too afraid to say anything to her. Why do woman do this? Fuck that thing, don’t mess with a married person. Be it a woman or man.
• God, I keep feeling broken one second, fine the next, depressed, then energetic, hopeless, hopeful and empowered.
• I really think I’m going insane.
• I’m alone as Suiz is in New York and realize how codependent I have become of him in the past 5 years.
• I don’t know if it’s necessarily bad,  I mean we just WORK when we are together. But when we are appart like now (even if it is for a little while) I feel like I can’t do stuff without him. This is totally not true. I’m a capable person and can do stuff on my own, I just feel that way.
• I’m in a “imagine Dragons” mood. Is that hipster? Do we like or hate hipsters? Do we like or hate Imagine Dragons? What’s the consensus on that?
• I have to go have dinner with my inlaws. Apparently both my mom and mother in law decided that since Suiz is out of town I CAN’T be alone all the time in the appartment. My mom even said I should go sleep at her place. 
• No way Jose! I’m staying home, eating like a pig and watching Criminal Minds with the protection of Charlie the cat. 
• I got tired of this list.
• I’m out.

So Suiz is going to fucking NYC. I hate him so much.

Can’t come with him. Because apparently I am an adult and I have a job. And I am responsible. FUCK ALL OF THIS SHIT.

Jealous much?

Yes, you could say so.

If you want to meet with him then by all means do. Unless you have bad intensions. Then stay the fuck away from him.

I’m going to be all alone. That sucks.

I will miss him way too much. 

I carry sadness in the back of my eyes. Constantly and permanently.